You know, it's been three years and I still don’t have the words. I sit silently and, in mere seconds, conjure up every raw, numbing, crushing emotion. The tight, hollow ball in the well of my stomach expands to consume me, and I drown once more in the deafening blackness of utter incomprehension. How can I return to a place I’ve never left, but only set aside? How can one man accommodate the want of all creation? I will forever be that man.